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Fantasy Still Matters
Nov. 15th, 2007 10:40 pmHave decided not to go to Fantasy Matters 3-day conference, starting tomorrow. Yes, it sounds awesome. Yes, I pre-registered. But right now, the thought of walking around a strange campus and moving from classroom to classroom (let alone to social events "a few blocks" away) makes me quail. Even setting aside the whole "ack! crowd of strangers!" anxiety, which I think I was able to. Set aside, that is.
Sometimes I'm told I push myself too hard. Sometimes I'm told that I'm wussing out. Makes it hard to know which way to go to compensate. I just know that I feel less stressed now.
And yes, I really am running out of painkiller. I don't keep vast stocks on hand, y'know, and they didn't give me a prescription for anything stronger. And I'm frustrated, because I hate being injured, and the Mad Scientist has not yet produced cybernetic legs for me. He claims he's not that kind of Mad Scientist. And I half-think that maybe it's all in my head, and if I just took off the brace and stopped using the cane and *forced* my leg to do what it's told, things would be back to normal. Note: the doctor could apparently tell I was that sort of patient, as he told me horror stories about what happens to people who do that.
Also, I'm confused that Mpls wireless website says that wireless is now available, but our address is only eligible for the 3 Mbps speed, not 6. ??? Will call human beings tomorrow and try to sort out.
Sometimes I'm told I push myself too hard. Sometimes I'm told that I'm wussing out. Makes it hard to know which way to go to compensate. I just know that I feel less stressed now.
And yes, I really am running out of painkiller. I don't keep vast stocks on hand, y'know, and they didn't give me a prescription for anything stronger. And I'm frustrated, because I hate being injured, and the Mad Scientist has not yet produced cybernetic legs for me. He claims he's not that kind of Mad Scientist. And I half-think that maybe it's all in my head, and if I just took off the brace and stopped using the cane and *forced* my leg to do what it's told, things would be back to normal. Note: the doctor could apparently tell I was that sort of patient, as he told me horror stories about what happens to people who do that.
Also, I'm confused that Mpls wireless website says that wireless is now available, but our address is only eligible for the 3 Mbps speed, not 6. ??? Will call human beings tomorrow and try to sort out.