Creative Hangover

[abracanabra]

I am in a weird unbalanced place for emotion/action/productivity. I am not sure what this place is. It's a little like depression, because I am eating/sleeping too much and not in the right patterns. I'm overwhelmed with things I must/want to work on that are running through my brain in a constant litany that makes me want to hide under my desk or in bed and try to block them out, though that only makes them louder and means I'm not actually getting anything of worth done. It's impending doom and ack! how do I tackle this and I have no talent and I am lazy and who am I trying to fool anyway. I'm off-balance, but I don't know which way to move to correct it.

It's very annoying.

I suspect this is a combined motive hangover that has been building up from all the creative spark input I've been getting from conferences and people, combined with more pressure and what-I-should-be-doing realizations and just the fatigue that working the day job full-time and not having time to do my own thing gives me.

Comments

[karenthology.livejournal.com]

I'm there, too.

I've noticed that 'should' can be a nasty, insidious word, though. It immediately makes comparisons that should not be made, as your path is different than everyone else's.

Hang in there! You have wonderful things to write.

[cloudscudding.livejournal.com]

It's more of, "I'm at A, I want to be at B, and there's really one best way through that mountain gorge up ahead, so stop trying to climb up the side instead."

But thanks.

[karenthology.livejournal.com]

There might be two! You just might not see it yet. :)